Nearly Married

As some of you know myself and my partner are getting married this year, until now I have not told anyone on the vine he actual date it's not that I am ashamed of getting married, its not scared that you would have all turned up, it was more that I didn't know if the wedding was going to happen,

before I go any futher I have to thank Jeanied and GingerNinger for taking over the running of the seed parcels, I do feel dreadfully guilty that I left itso long to start them and fully understand the concern about the parcels by the admin team, it had not been my intention to have messed you all around and delayed the parcels by so much. I'm sure Jeanied and GingerNinger will be able to run the parcels much better than I ever could

I'm not trying to excuse delaying the parcels as at the end of the day I am responsible for my own actions and should have done better
but I thought I would explain why I have not been on the Vine as much as I would like to have been

some of you know I had a christmas from hell with the washing machine and the dishwasher broke, my drains collapsed and had to be repaired all this with next to no income to pay for it all in the first place,

I had hoped the New Year was going to be easier but to be honest its had more lows than I think I deserved I been admitted to hospital 3 times since February (fingers crossed I can manage between now and the wedding without having to go back)

My partners health issues has been getting the better of her, so I now have to be her carer 24/7 whilst trying to deal with my health issues that seem to be deteriorating quicker than we wanted it to, so much so we have had to get the house adapted earlier than was first thought, I suppose I can count having a stair lift and downstairs wet room installed downstairs as a benefit but to be honest having to have the house adapted and having to accept my health and mobility are getting worse don't seem to make it feel any better.

thanks to continuing increases in fuel I can't keep the house as warm as I need it to be so I will probably end up being admited more regularly to hospital,

our support workers have been done away with because their funding has gone meaning I am left alone to deal with my OH's health on my own, and she's left dealing with my health issues without any support. I do accept when we are in recession things need to be cut but we seem to have lost almost our support network,

If it were not for my family I probably would not have been able to afford the all cost of the wedding and believe me we have cut the cost down to the bone.

my garden which is my therapy my only time I can forget my troubles has been totally neglected as my health has not let me get out enough to even deal with the bind weed that seems to cover the lot of it,

with all the publicity about Disability Benefits I have the concern not only are we considered such a burden on the state (I think the current term for us is Benefits Scroungers acordding to the Daily Mail)
that the number of yearly medicals is going to increase and the changes to the disablity benefits could mean what income I do receieve could be reduced dramatically which will affect my ability to cover my morgage

I would go on but I think I have probably gone on way too much anyway

So you see we have been dealing with quite a few issues which mean't I really have not been feeling up to joining in on the Vine

anyway instead of giving it all and cancelling everything we decided we are going ahead with the wedding so on the 28 May 2011 my OH and me will be married and possibly we might be able to start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel

So if its possible I don't want you to feel sorry for me but I would love it if you could cross your fingers on the 28 so that we atleast have some positive vibes on the day