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You might wonder why I'm wanting this year over as quick as possible
It could be at the start of the month my washing machine gave up the ghost so had to be replaced £210
It could be 3 days later my outside drains blocked and took 2 hours to clear
£168
It could be that last week my Dish washer died. yes I know it might be a luxury normally but I struggle to stand for any length of time and OH can not wash dishes due to skin condition (well thats what she tells me) £200
It could be that although snow looks like fun it means I am house bound as I can't afford to fall and the cold make my condition alot more difficult to cope with
It could that on Monday My Youngest had to go to casualty at 10pm at night because he had a nose bleed that would not stop and driving on unsalted road was no fun but thankfully all sorted at A&E and managed to get home safely
It could be the fact its Christmas week and I have 4 people to look after who are suffering from the flu (don't know how I'm avoiding as I didn't have a flu jab this year). On top of this dealing with my OH who suffers from depression which is typically bad enough over Chrismas is so much more difficult to keep her positive when she is unwell
Being the carer is a bit of a roll reversal as i'm not that mobile any more, I usually get help from them, I'm guessing my levels of Care won't win any prizes and I'm sure my bed side manner is extremly poor when my pain is bad
and most carers don't have to lie down for an hour or two after serving food
To finish off my Christmas week my drains blocked yet again this time they can't be jetted and I have to have the whole system dug up and replaced, This involves going across my neighbours drive and he's not wanting them on his land (thank god for deeds and rights of way) and under a public highway Guesstimate up to 3 days to sort out and they are starting tommorow which means it won't be finished until after christmas. The estimate was £2000 which was very worrying until I found out its covered by my insurance so I now have to find £75 (Thank god I have a credit card as I now have no cash or savings left) so I don't have to tell my OH to finish me off for the Life insurance payment now.
I still have to MOT the car next week but my local garage usually takes 3 to 4 weeks to bill me
I just wish I had the £34 000 the new papers quote when the talk about 'Those on Benefits' or even a third of it, then finances would not be a worry, or perhaps I should just sell the house and live in rented accomodation until I run out of money.
So it could be all of these problems have made this one of my worst months finishing off my less than perfect year for me
however some positives will be happening early next year
It could be that I will finally have my Stair Lift and Down stairs Toilet/shower fitted soon as my Disabled Facilities Grant finally came through (building work starting end of January)
I'm getting married in May but although it's a good reason but I'm happy to wait til then (OH not so happy)
perhaps the reason that I'm looking forward to 2011 is that in less than a fortnight I will be able to wear white socks with sandals, I can buy a tweed jacket with leather elbow pads. I can start some ridiculous hobby (I'm thinking growing giant veg) to justify my existance and I can have a mid life Crisis because it's my Birthday & I will be turning 40
You might guess that most of today I have been in a feeling sorry for myself glass half empty mood even knowing a lot of people have it a lot worse than me, but after a large hug from my 3 year old boy and a big grin from my little girl this evening I realise it is all worth while and my glass is actually Half full, I'm just hoping someone else will pay for the next round or I will have to make this drink last for the next 12 months
Roll on 2011 as long as I get hugs and smiles from my kids,I think I can cope with almost anything
It could be at the start of the month my washing machine gave up the ghost so had to be replaced £210
It could be 3 days later my outside drains blocked and took 2 hours to clear
£168
It could be that last week my Dish washer died. yes I know it might be a luxury normally but I struggle to stand for any length of time and OH can not wash dishes due to skin condition (well thats what she tells me) £200
It could be that although snow looks like fun it means I am house bound as I can't afford to fall and the cold make my condition alot more difficult to cope with
It could that on Monday My Youngest had to go to casualty at 10pm at night because he had a nose bleed that would not stop and driving on unsalted road was no fun but thankfully all sorted at A&E and managed to get home safely
It could be the fact its Christmas week and I have 4 people to look after who are suffering from the flu (don't know how I'm avoiding as I didn't have a flu jab this year). On top of this dealing with my OH who suffers from depression which is typically bad enough over Chrismas is so much more difficult to keep her positive when she is unwell
Being the carer is a bit of a roll reversal as i'm not that mobile any more, I usually get help from them, I'm guessing my levels of Care won't win any prizes and I'm sure my bed side manner is extremly poor when my pain is bad
and most carers don't have to lie down for an hour or two after serving food
To finish off my Christmas week my drains blocked yet again this time they can't be jetted and I have to have the whole system dug up and replaced, This involves going across my neighbours drive and he's not wanting them on his land (thank god for deeds and rights of way) and under a public highway Guesstimate up to 3 days to sort out and they are starting tommorow which means it won't be finished until after christmas. The estimate was £2000 which was very worrying until I found out its covered by my insurance so I now have to find £75 (Thank god I have a credit card as I now have no cash or savings left) so I don't have to tell my OH to finish me off for the Life insurance payment now.
I still have to MOT the car next week but my local garage usually takes 3 to 4 weeks to bill me
I just wish I had the £34 000 the new papers quote when the talk about 'Those on Benefits' or even a third of it, then finances would not be a worry, or perhaps I should just sell the house and live in rented accomodation until I run out of money.
So it could be all of these problems have made this one of my worst months finishing off my less than perfect year for me
however some positives will be happening early next year
It could be that I will finally have my Stair Lift and Down stairs Toilet/shower fitted soon as my Disabled Facilities Grant finally came through (building work starting end of January)
I'm getting married in May but although it's a good reason but I'm happy to wait til then (OH not so happy)
perhaps the reason that I'm looking forward to 2011 is that in less than a fortnight I will be able to wear white socks with sandals, I can buy a tweed jacket with leather elbow pads. I can start some ridiculous hobby (I'm thinking growing giant veg) to justify my existance and I can have a mid life Crisis because it's my Birthday & I will be turning 40
You might guess that most of today I have been in a feeling sorry for myself glass half empty mood even knowing a lot of people have it a lot worse than me, but after a large hug from my 3 year old boy and a big grin from my little girl this evening I realise it is all worth while and my glass is actually Half full, I'm just hoping someone else will pay for the next round or I will have to make this drink last for the next 12 months
Roll on 2011 as long as I get hugs and smiles from my kids,I think I can cope with almost anything
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